One thing I notice about
One thing I notice about life is that people normally notice you more if you’ve done something wrong, if you’ve done something negatively out of the normal. This is kinda weird. It’s those people who are good, so to say, who are forgotten. I don’t know how many of my good friends have already left my trusted brain, but it’s those people who are weird in a way that stays in my mind most of the time.
Am mugging computing now (yea, why else do you think would I be using a computer at 4 am for?). Kinda scared that I can’t finish going through the whole of Computing and F Maths by the time the test starts, which is about 28 hours from now.
Hey, and come to think of it also, I spend much more of my time thinking about issues of life, mostly bad, rather than trying to overcome it. And come to think of it again, that’s kinda a waste of time.
But still, I don’t truly understand myself as yet. I mean, I still find it hard to understand myself. What I really want in the future, what I want to be, etc.
OK, let me admit that at this time I really, really have no idea what I’m going to do after JC. Is it going to university straight away? Which university? Local or overseas? Which course to take? Or is it working? Relief teaching? Designing a game? For how long? And the list goes on and on.
And if what I just poured out on my Windows Notepad above doesn’t make sense to you, don’t worry. It makes little sense to me too. It’s almost 4.30 am anyway.
But if it does, good for you.
Oh, heck, life sucks.
Blog typed offline at: 4:25 AM 23/02/2003