Offline blog: 4:06 AM 13/04/2003
Offline blog: 4:06 AM 13/04/2003
I woke up this morning (this morning being yesterday, on 12 April at 12.45 pm) from a bittersweet dream… and a ridiculous too. Or maybe it was 2 different dreams? Anyway, in the first one, I found myself sitting in a vehicle (can’t remember what it was) next to the certain she. And guess what happened next? I asked her out. (d’oh, we were already out in the dream…) And guess where I asked her out to? Changi Airport. (d’oh, like there’s no other better places…) And guess how she answered? She thought about it for a while, before nodding with that unsure look. (d’oh, like Changi Airport is some !@#$% place… But considering the SARS situation…)
I can’t really remember what happened next, but I only remembered that after that my dream changed to this ridiculous scene where there’s this guy who wanted to go to some place. And the next thing I know, there’s this elephant who’s supposed to accompany him. And the funny thing… The elephant can (!@#$%^&*) swim. And off they went to this river and they almost fell off the edge of a waterfall. And then the elephant saved the guy and they went to the beach. And off they went swimming across the ocean (!!!!) only to stop halfway as the guy remembered that they’re supposed to go somewhere else.
Have I bored you yet?
Anyway, why did I call it bittersweet? Because I found myself waking up, only to realise that whatever happened in my dreams can never happen in real life. It needs a miracle, a very grand one for the first to happen. (I guess that’s what you would call your dream girl, eh? lol…) And an even greater one for the second. And why was it ridiculous? Easy to guess, eh?
Ninerz.com is still down until now. I still don’t have the time to check with the people responsible though as the comp lab at boarding school is still closed and I’m still busy clearing up my new mails I have acquired during the break. That’s why I haven’t blogged for quite a while now and that’s why I’m switching back to blogspot for the moment.
Oh, by the way, I rented Lilo and Stitch DVD during the break. That’s a not bad deal for $5 at Dover Market. I would suggest you get in touch with one, and not only touch it, but also watch it. I never realised that DVD has a superb audio-video quality, not to mention a whole load of extra stuff they put inside.
Oh yeah, out of boredom, I decorated my wall with a collage of 56 photographs that I’ve taken through my stay in Singapore. Ok, actually only the photographs I’ve taken since half of last year. So now it looks like a gallery. Maybe if I’ve got myself an access to a scanner, I’ll take a photo of my own collection of photos, and then post it up.
I have to mention these two quotations that I obtained from my so-called “2003 Motivation Calendar”. That’s a calendar in which you can find the small versions of those motivation posters. You know, those where there’s this big picture and then there’s this text below relating something to the picture that’s supposed to, well, motivate you. I bought the calendar much earlier this year, but I never knew that these will hit me now. Anyway, they are:
“A diamond is just a piece of coal that did well under pressure”
“You know you’re on the road to success…
when you realise that failure is just a detour”
Simple, and a bit corny, but they just struck me the moment I read them. And, oh, how true they are. You may be under a lot of pressure from your surroundings and your life. But once you got through that period of time successfully, oh, how sparkling a person you have proven you are! As for the second one, if you put such a mindset, I think it can help you a lot. Then you’ll know that no matter what happens to you, you’ll succeed in the end, once you get back on track.
I think everyone should learn from these two quotations. But the problem is: I haven’t gone through that period successfully yet. And I don’t have the mindset of the second. And even if I have, I still haven’t found the track I’ve been following all the while.
I’m listening to Pachelbel’s Canon in D now. I dunno why but the song just seems to bring back a lot of memories. All the sweet and bitter memories are coming back at me. From what happened when I was in my secondary school in Indonesia, to the moment I got the scholarships to Singapore, to what happened around my ‘O’ Level time, till what’s happening now. I’d like to talk more about it, but they’re kinda long or too personal to mention here.
Oh, my Windows Media Player playlist puts Collin Ray’s Love Me as the next song. I’ve never really paid attention to the lyrics of the song before, but again, they kinda struck me now. I don’t know why it can do so, since it seems to be just another ballad. Or maybe it’s the tone of the song… Or is it because I’m typing this at 4 AM? Anyway, the lyrics are below. I ripped that straight from the song, so errors are expected.
Love Me
by: Collin Ray
I read a note my grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said, “Boy, you might not understand
but a long, long time ago
Grandma’s daddy didn’t like me none
but I loved your Grandma, so
“We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to
And live forever
“But nailed to the tree
where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
and this is what it says”
(Chorus)
“If you get there before I do
Don’t give up on me
I’ll meet you when my chores are through
I don’t know how long I’ll be
“But I’m not gonna let you down
Darling, wait and see
And between now and then,
Until I see you again
I’ll be loving you
Love me”
I read those words just hours before
My grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church
Where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I never see him cry
In all my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears
(Chorus)
Between now and then,
Until I see you again
I’ll be loving you
Love me