i thought it’s all already
i thought it’s all already decided. just when i thought i would end up in nus, taking electrical engineering, another option pops up. that is, the option of going to australia. which i used to think about the last time when i was taking my o levels. well, this time, it’s the same thing all over again. furthermore, the teacher-in-charge of spectra confronted me that time for me being unadventurous.
i’ve never thought much about what i’m gonna do after jc. until the mid-year of this year. then i thought of going to nus, without much thought about which course i’m going to take. and then i decided to take electrical engineering. and now, after much thinking, going to australia is an option. no, no, it’s not just because of the comment of the teacher. yes, i did think about it, it’s just that i’ve never brought it up until this time. the way i see it, if i go to australia, i would have a lot more experience compared to if i were to stay in singapore.
you see, i don’t like the idea of leaving what i’ve been used to. i’m having difficulties even talking about this, because everytime i start talking about this, i’ll be on the verge of crying. yes, it’s the thought that i would have to leave everything, everyone that i’ve grown to love throughout my stay in singapore behind me. pretty much the same feeling as i had when i had to move to singapore after my indonesian junior high school. but that time i was not so close to my friends in school, which was why i adjusted to singapore pretty quickly. and now… after that period of time in which i grew closer to my friends, it becomes hard for me to leave it all.
so, it’s not everytime that i ask for opinion from you, readers of my blog. but i need it now. so if you have anything to say about this, please say it. now, i know that there aren’t that many readers of my blog, so please don’t comment just to be the first or just to make sure i’m not heartbroken because there’s no comment at all. please comment sincerely. for a friend of yours. well, that is, if you think of me as your friend. thanks.
meanwhile, my plan is that if i really go to australia, i would come back to take my PhD here in singapore. that is, if they allow it. if not, then i would continue in australia. otherwise, if the plan doesn’t work out, i would be continuing my studies in singapore. in either case, i’m going to miss you all. very much.