“Hope, it is the quintessential
“Hope, it is the quintessential human delusion simultaneously the source of your greatest strength and your greatest weakness.”
- The Architect, The Matrix: Reloaded
to a friend who put up some message on his blog on August 25, 2003, 2:24 PM: it’s ok i guess. it’s your own blog, so you have the right to put that up. but only my request is not to disclose any names. and not to touch the topic with anyone else too.
wonderful. so now there’s finally a person who both knows who the person is and at the same time reads my blog regularly. whee…
no no. i’m not trying to say that i shouldn’t tell you, or that i should tell you, or what. it just feels… i dunno. it’s like, the anxiety of someone knowing this is mixed with the relief that i have less to hide.
but then again, one side of me just still have a feeling that we will never be the same again. never. ever. so, just to maintain as friends, i would need a lot of luck. i guess. let alone hoping something more would happen.
and the bad thing is this nagging feeling from the other side of me. you guess yourself what it is.
sigh… so much for a guy who just wants everyone as friends, and not brood any enemies. or at least a guy who wants noone to think of himself badly. um, ok, except for some exceptional instances.
heh… sorry but there are a lot of conflicting thoughts in my brain. like i can think of an impossibility of something to happen, but at the same time i can also think of the hope that such thing can and does or did happen. well, as the architect said: “Hope, it is the quintessential human delusion simultaneously the source of your greatest strength and your greatest weakness.”
well…….
oh anyway, just received a good news from the teacher-in-charge of my cca. all five of us nominated for the outstanding service awards will be receiving the awards! yay! and considering that there are only about 10 jc2s from the whole club, spectra is probably the club with the highest ratio of outstanding service awardees to jc2 members ratio! of course, unless if, for example, people like those from golf club (which only has 2 members anyway) got in too.
oh well, time to mug for computing paper today…