i’m very scared. the voices
i’m very scared.
the voices in my head just didn’t diminish even after a while last night.
that’s before i forced myself.
forced myself to think about nothingness.
i don’t know if it was a dream.
but i could still feel myself lying on my bed.
i could still feel everything that was happening around me.
the turn of the fan above me.
the coolness of air-con in the room
shouldn’t you not feel all these if you’re dreaming?
and then it appeared.
the bluish white blob in the middle of darkness of my closed eyes.
it shone, like a star in the middle of the dark space.
and a voice just told me “look at it. touch it.”
and i did.
it was squishy, like those soft rubber balls.
but i put it back where it was.
back floating in the space.
and pushed my index finger through it.
and it felt like as if it was a portal to another dimension.
my finger just disappeared as it made its way into the ‘thing’.
and then everything was black.
seriously, this is getting very disturbing…